Today on the 20th of September 2012 I lost my autie Philis. The overall cause was leukemia which she has been battling for a few years now. It is a horrible loss for my family and of course her husband, my uncle.
The almost fear that we have of losing someone is of course a rational one but none the less it is surprising how it can hit us as an individual. As I am writing this I will admit that I only found out about 20 minutes ago meaning that the actual loss is only just starting to reach me a little bit. Of course we all have our own ways of dealing with things like loss for instance me whenever something terrible happens in my life I do take comfort in writing/typing down what is in my mind as I think it. Other people have different methods but personally I like doing this as it allows my mind to just freely move on its own and it does help me to do something whilst keeping that person in my mind.
Personally well I like to believe anyway that whenever a person dies their life force passes through into a new life that is about to experience the world. For instance as my auntie died in the hospital the life that helped to create her's will pass into a new born baby that may be being born at the same my aunt died in the same hospital. To me it's kind of like a cycle that indicates an almost infinite loop of life and death. Simply put with death brings life. With sorrow somewhere creating joy somewhere else. This is just me of course you may think something different but still...I will also admit that I am not the most religious of people but I do like to believe that there is a kind of after life and by this I mean like a heaven kind of thing. As the life force in them passes on the person gets to go to heaven. I guess it just makes me feel happier with this thought that my aunt is looking down on her family waiting there for them and no longer experiencing any of the pain that she was feeling before she passed. A more serene state
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