Well it has been freaking forever since I have even been on this site so I thought I would make a blog for the hell of it since hell no one even reads these bloody things anyway but first this font sucks and it must be changed...How's this? Terrible...How about now...It's the fucking same but under a different freaking name...Now? Screw it I am gona stick with this one...
Man it was a scorcher of a day today. The thing that sucked is that I worked construction the entire day so I had to spend the entire freaking day inside killing myself not being able to enjoy the heat. And I mean it bloody lovely day regardless, so nice in fact it put me in a good mood which meant me having the glorious song Maggie May by Rod Stewert which is a perfect song for a day like today and if you haven't heard it before then well what the hell is wrong with you here is a link to it http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZY5eTP6fCmA Now listen to it before I give you cancer.
So what's new with me? Well I have started learning Japanese with my university which is pretty awesome and I know enough to say this あなたは、におい which by the way it is so true to who ever is reading this which considering the amount of people that I get viewing this is no one. But still it is true.
So what else...Just started working for the summer which sucks cause it is construction work meaning it is boring as shit but with such boring work I get time to actively think about stuff which is fairly useful when I need to think about my dissertation stuff (for those not in the know a dissertation is a final year project thing that you make up by yourself...It is very long and very hard cause you have to come to a conclusion from something of your own concoction).
I now also have a girlfriend which is friggin awesomely mental! That today also made me think about the past and all the girls who I have asked out in my time and it made me think how funny it was cause I was so desperate to be in a relationship. And the moment that I finally stopped looking for someone to date was the moment that randomly got kissed and well now various months later here I am...
So yea...erm...Yea I can think of Jack shit all to right about now so I think I am going to leave it at this...Hmm...Nope got nothing never mind. Blog is over now
THE END
Tuesday, 4 June 2013
Thursday, 20 September 2012
Cycles of life
Today on the 20th of September 2012 I lost my autie Philis. The overall cause was leukemia which she has been battling for a few years now. It is a horrible loss for my family and of course her husband, my uncle.
The almost fear that we have of losing someone is of course a rational one but none the less it is surprising how it can hit us as an individual. As I am writing this I will admit that I only found out about 20 minutes ago meaning that the actual loss is only just starting to reach me a little bit. Of course we all have our own ways of dealing with things like loss for instance me whenever something terrible happens in my life I do take comfort in writing/typing down what is in my mind as I think it. Other people have different methods but personally I like doing this as it allows my mind to just freely move on its own and it does help me to do something whilst keeping that person in my mind.
Personally well I like to believe anyway that whenever a person dies their life force passes through into a new life that is about to experience the world. For instance as my auntie died in the hospital the life that helped to create her's will pass into a new born baby that may be being born at the same my aunt died in the same hospital. To me it's kind of like a cycle that indicates an almost infinite loop of life and death. Simply put with death brings life. With sorrow somewhere creating joy somewhere else. This is just me of course you may think something different but still...I will also admit that I am not the most religious of people but I do like to believe that there is a kind of after life and by this I mean like a heaven kind of thing. As the life force in them passes on the person gets to go to heaven. I guess it just makes me feel happier with this thought that my aunt is looking down on her family waiting there for them and no longer experiencing any of the pain that she was feeling before she passed. A more serene state
The almost fear that we have of losing someone is of course a rational one but none the less it is surprising how it can hit us as an individual. As I am writing this I will admit that I only found out about 20 minutes ago meaning that the actual loss is only just starting to reach me a little bit. Of course we all have our own ways of dealing with things like loss for instance me whenever something terrible happens in my life I do take comfort in writing/typing down what is in my mind as I think it. Other people have different methods but personally I like doing this as it allows my mind to just freely move on its own and it does help me to do something whilst keeping that person in my mind.
Personally well I like to believe anyway that whenever a person dies their life force passes through into a new life that is about to experience the world. For instance as my auntie died in the hospital the life that helped to create her's will pass into a new born baby that may be being born at the same my aunt died in the same hospital. To me it's kind of like a cycle that indicates an almost infinite loop of life and death. Simply put with death brings life. With sorrow somewhere creating joy somewhere else. This is just me of course you may think something different but still...I will also admit that I am not the most religious of people but I do like to believe that there is a kind of after life and by this I mean like a heaven kind of thing. As the life force in them passes on the person gets to go to heaven. I guess it just makes me feel happier with this thought that my aunt is looking down on her family waiting there for them and no longer experiencing any of the pain that she was feeling before she passed. A more serene state
Tuesday, 3 July 2012
Good byes
Of all things that we as people go through in life I personally believe the hardest thing to do is say good bye to someone or something that has been very close to us.
This year my first year at university I didn't expect to fall in love with someone but of course I did. Her name was Grace. She was in the second year of university, on a placement from China in the UK.
We first originally got to know each other through the social media of facebook. In china they do not have facebook so when she first came here to the UK she signed up and wanted to know people who were going to the same university as her and by random chance she added me. That's how we came to know each other.
We had spoken online pretty much daily for about a month until we finally met when we again by chance joined the same society and met at the beginning. Online we were confident talking but face to face we were much more timid to say the least but we still shared laughs and such.
Due to the fact that she had a busy schedule at university we barely got time to see each other but because she was an avid street dancer we arranged to meet up weekly at the end of her dance class to that i could walk her home. It was about a 20-30 minute walk and we pretty much spent the entire time talking if anything I would say I have just about all of my good memories about her from then. But my best/favorite memory was the second time we met face to face.
I was going through a hard time as a member of my family was passing away which of course made me upset. But that Saturday I told Grace that I would treat her for her birthday by taking her on a day out around the city and go to her favorite restaurant and of course pay for the meal. She did not know about what I was going through but the main thing I remember from that day was her ability to make me smile even whilst I was feeling so low. My heart loved her for that and on that day I felt both of us growing closer.
Then came the day for me to ask her out. We had known each other for about 5 months and even I knew that whatever the response it wouldn't change the fact that she was leaving at the end of the academic year...It was a no in the end for her reply but she did like me it was just horrible timing on my behalf. There was only 1 thing in our way...Time or more specifically the time left until she would leave and we not see each other again.
On today's date the 3rd of July 2012 she is catching her plane and we had one final chat on the phone to say good bye and thanking each other for the year we had together
1 person... 2 simple words...Words that people utter to each other on a daily basis but today it was much different. Even though it was only on the phone every word spoken had a deep meaning and when the call ended and of course those words were spoken. It has left an impression in me...Not heart break but close. Its the sensation of not seeing or hearing from someone dear to me again...
Good bye Grace. Where ever you go my heart will follow
This year my first year at university I didn't expect to fall in love with someone but of course I did. Her name was Grace. She was in the second year of university, on a placement from China in the UK.
We first originally got to know each other through the social media of facebook. In china they do not have facebook so when she first came here to the UK she signed up and wanted to know people who were going to the same university as her and by random chance she added me. That's how we came to know each other.
We had spoken online pretty much daily for about a month until we finally met when we again by chance joined the same society and met at the beginning. Online we were confident talking but face to face we were much more timid to say the least but we still shared laughs and such.
Due to the fact that she had a busy schedule at university we barely got time to see each other but because she was an avid street dancer we arranged to meet up weekly at the end of her dance class to that i could walk her home. It was about a 20-30 minute walk and we pretty much spent the entire time talking if anything I would say I have just about all of my good memories about her from then. But my best/favorite memory was the second time we met face to face.
I was going through a hard time as a member of my family was passing away which of course made me upset. But that Saturday I told Grace that I would treat her for her birthday by taking her on a day out around the city and go to her favorite restaurant and of course pay for the meal. She did not know about what I was going through but the main thing I remember from that day was her ability to make me smile even whilst I was feeling so low. My heart loved her for that and on that day I felt both of us growing closer.
Then came the day for me to ask her out. We had known each other for about 5 months and even I knew that whatever the response it wouldn't change the fact that she was leaving at the end of the academic year...It was a no in the end for her reply but she did like me it was just horrible timing on my behalf. There was only 1 thing in our way...Time or more specifically the time left until she would leave and we not see each other again.
On today's date the 3rd of July 2012 she is catching her plane and we had one final chat on the phone to say good bye and thanking each other for the year we had together
1 person... 2 simple words...Words that people utter to each other on a daily basis but today it was much different. Even though it was only on the phone every word spoken had a deep meaning and when the call ended and of course those words were spoken. It has left an impression in me...Not heart break but close. Its the sensation of not seeing or hearing from someone dear to me again...
Good bye Grace. Where ever you go my heart will follow
Friday, 27 April 2012
Can it be self harming to be nice
See I have always seen myself as a good person which of course there is nothing wrong with. But sometimes I do have to ask myself the question...Where is the line?
I find myself doing good(ish) things for people almost for no reason. A good friend of mine noticed this her self and actually asked my "why". The simple answer was "I do not know". But then she asked me "Are you doing this just so people will think better of you even though you may not even know these people?" Which lead me to wonder "Is there any such thing as being nice just for the sake of being nice and not wanting anything out of it?"
Recently I let a person back into my life...Without going into detail about the person lets just say that they made me feel lower than I had ever ever done before and part of me (for the first time in my life) still does not want to forgive this person even though the incident happened about a year and a half ago.
Let me make this clear, I think it is pretty hard to hurt a person like myself who has such a low opinion about me which in one way it is comforting because I am almost immune from insults...But when I do get hurt it sticks and it is almost impossible to forget about the pain.
So now leading to the title of the blog. If said person made me feel lower than life then why do I think it's a good idea to let them back in?
1. Could it be because it's just part of my forgiving nature and a want to just get the past behind me? Maybe. I always end up forgiving people normally within days so for me to hold a hatred for a year and a half is damn near impressive. But if it was due to my nature then would I have not forgiven this person perhaps just after a week after?
2. Large reason could be because I just hate conflict in life...simple as that
3. Could my feelings towards this person be unchanged to how I felt for them before it...
OR
4. Some other reason. What this reason could be I actually do not know but maybe there is another reason...
All I can say is that I hope it is a mixture of 1&2 and I do hope it is not 3 as I know how much I felt for this person before the incident happened...
If anybody ends up reading this feel free to comment if you think you can help cause heaven knows I'm stuck
I find myself doing good(ish) things for people almost for no reason. A good friend of mine noticed this her self and actually asked my "why". The simple answer was "I do not know". But then she asked me "Are you doing this just so people will think better of you even though you may not even know these people?" Which lead me to wonder "Is there any such thing as being nice just for the sake of being nice and not wanting anything out of it?"
Recently I let a person back into my life...Without going into detail about the person lets just say that they made me feel lower than I had ever ever done before and part of me (for the first time in my life) still does not want to forgive this person even though the incident happened about a year and a half ago.
Let me make this clear, I think it is pretty hard to hurt a person like myself who has such a low opinion about me which in one way it is comforting because I am almost immune from insults...But when I do get hurt it sticks and it is almost impossible to forget about the pain.
So now leading to the title of the blog. If said person made me feel lower than life then why do I think it's a good idea to let them back in?
1. Could it be because it's just part of my forgiving nature and a want to just get the past behind me? Maybe. I always end up forgiving people normally within days so for me to hold a hatred for a year and a half is damn near impressive. But if it was due to my nature then would I have not forgiven this person perhaps just after a week after?
2. Large reason could be because I just hate conflict in life...simple as that
3. Could my feelings towards this person be unchanged to how I felt for them before it...
OR
4. Some other reason. What this reason could be I actually do not know but maybe there is another reason...
All I can say is that I hope it is a mixture of 1&2 and I do hope it is not 3 as I know how much I felt for this person before the incident happened...
If anybody ends up reading this feel free to comment if you think you can help cause heaven knows I'm stuck
Tuesday, 20 March 2012
3 days
With just under 3 days till i go snow boarding in France for a week I and a group of 4 friends went to an in door snow dome today just to brush up on our skills. I will admit that I only started to learn how to snow board since September which basically means that I am not great, especially because I didn't have enough money/time to continue doing it since February. But despite this I have realized that i still remember how to do it to a basic extent and now I am able to progress on doing it on the toe edge. In short that's like the opposite way to how I normally do it and with this I am on a massive high to go snow boarding in France.
As far as the preparation for France goes I more or less have everything including fancy dress...I'm not going to mention what that includes as it is a tad embarrassing haha. Just three days to go before my first time on proper snow. I have a feeling that it will easily be the greatest week of my life. I'm going with the snow sports society so it's going to be a large group of friends snow boarding/skiing during the day and drinking at night. I cannot wait for it.
Monday, 19 March 2012
First blog
Hey. My name is Shane Coffey.
I'm 20 years old studying Geography and natural hazards at Coventry university.
I'm mainly just looking for an out look to express myself because I feel as though I am not fully capable of doing it verbally. I do not really expect anyone to read my blogs but of course I will appreciate it if anyone does.
So far I feel as though as a person I have been going through a massive change since I started my first year of university. I have become more out going since I was always quite shy in high school and college.
I'm 20 years old studying Geography and natural hazards at Coventry university.
I'm mainly just looking for an out look to express myself because I feel as though I am not fully capable of doing it verbally. I do not really expect anyone to read my blogs but of course I will appreciate it if anyone does.
So far I feel as though as a person I have been going through a massive change since I started my first year of university. I have become more out going since I was always quite shy in high school and college.
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